#gahhhh dont mind me

[papple]

"Will you ever tell me a story?"

He scoffs, a wisp of a shadow flicking across his form. "Why should I?"

The boy grins while tucking himself deeper into the roots, the gap in his teeth on full display. "Well! You must have something to tell!"

"I do not."

"Oh. Are you sure?"

The shadow turns to face Dream with a disapproving look, which does nothing to dampen the younger's smile. Though, he stops pushing and closes his eyes, his thoughts quieting.

When the boy has almost lulled himself to sleep, a hushed voice speaks to the night. "...Once, there was a sacred tree. And for the tree, a guardian to protect and care for it. This guardian was named Nightshade..."

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Seven Apple Seeds by @calcium-cat

[evercelle]

kim foxja... yoo joonghound......... and biyoo (already perfect creature)

[friedri-ce]

if u dont mind could you like explain ur drawing process :3 also i really like your art, the way the colours can sit together and if u ever see a bite mark on the corner of a piece that totally. wasn't me.

GAHHHH my drawing process is a mess yet I'll try to elaborate

1. sketch of the future work. it might be messy (just as the one below) or more accurate

2. the basic colors of the work. this one's a bit erratic.

3. rendering and figuring stuff out, making it more coherent. lets say i shamelessly draw over the sketch and color layers.

setting the light and shadows:

for shadows use darker version of main color with a blue/violet hue

for light use brighter version of the main color with a yellow hue

for black things use blue highlights

(also i avoid using plain gray colors, instead opting for a desaturated blue or purple)

4. for bigger works, i spend more time rendering little details and stuff. its important not to go overboard with them though.

(i still may go overboard with details sometimes)

5. finally, i might use some effects and filters to convey the overall mood, as well as fixing the light and shadow balance

but i dont follow these steps strictly, sometimes skipping one or two

thank you for listening me yapping. i hope it was helpful

[antiv3nom]

Bedman (Romeo)

omg havent had an excuse to talk abt bedman in a hot minute thank u anon...

favorite thing about them:

i love the tragedy of his story arc... that feels like a weird thing to say but its the first thing that came to mind! just. look. the road to hell paved with good intentions bit taken to the extreme really works here!!! the idea that he remembered the name of every person he ever killed because he was under the impression he could bring them all back, only to have the rug pulled from under him? hurts me! in the best way!!!

other than that i do enjoy his design, both romeo himself and the bed :] i wanna give my bedman cosplay another try sometime for sure, it didnt work out for various reasons but i have most of the components and would enjoy cosplaying him fr in the future

least favorite thing about them:

i think i dont really dislike anything about the way bedman is written in the source material strongly enough to point it out here? i think my main gripe is the way the fandom treats him to either extreme, like theres "bedman did nothing wrong ever" people and "bedman is horrific" people and i wish both camps would chill out and recognize hes like. a complex character? but i do think most people do this already which i can appreciate

favorite line:

im a little obsessed w his win line against may in xrd

"I do not understand humans who are motivated by love. A person is born, lives for a number of years, and interacts with up to eight billion people. What proof is there of something they can't even define?"

bc like. buddy. you dont even realize it. YOURE driven by love. all this shit wasnt just for yourself but it was for delilah too!!! fuck!!! you dont even see it as love you see it as necessary because shes that important to you!!! and dont even get me STARTED on the bed in strive and how its still running because of his last minute code additions which almost act as the last part of his will to protect delilah. GAHHHH

brOTP:

BEDMAN AND AXL INTERACTIONS. PLEASE. PLEASE. their dynamic is so interesting as characters with such fascinating ways of interacting with the world...gah. GAH. and no one fucking talks about it!!!

OTP:

sinbed. must i wlabo.

ok but i will, im not as into them as i was like a year ago but i still do really enjoy their dynamic. sin being such a beacon of hope and being so willing to see people as good contrasted with a post-xrd living bedman (bc all my sinbed stuff exists within au but im having fun out here so sue me) seeing himself as inherently evil due to his actions despite his intentions and believing no one would ever care for him? it hits for me

nOTP:

i dont know of anything off the top of my head that ive seen for him??? nothing prevalent at least.

actually on second thought i think ive seen like one instance of bedman and ram in a romantic sense, and that im not a fan of but i guess i could see the appeal, just not my thing

random headcanon:

this motherfucker would have gotten heated in some internet forums or wiki talk pages, DEDICATED to accuracy out here and he WILL fight you about it

unpopular opinion:

not entirely certain i have one? i think the "bedman while flawed is not actually a terrible person and was doing his best given his extremely fucked up circumstances" is a pretty cool take by this point for most people

i think the only thing i have is that my interpretation of bedman has always been as like a young adult rather than a kid but like i dont really have a concrete opinion on that and i totally understand people who do see him as a kid like its entirely understandable to do so

song i associate with them:

other than his character themes, its GOTTA be dramaturgy by eve, which just. it gives the vibes. read the english lyrics it will make sense i prommy

favorite image of them:

THE EEPER...

OTHER than this one its more an animation but his 6p in xrd is so silly i love it so bad...and for a more serious option his instant kill is really cool

[nurm-says-hurm]

HIHI i saw your post about the sunofthesky blog and (as the account owner) i wanted to say that it genuinely made me so happy to read that 😭 THANK YOU SO MUCH im so glad people are genuinely interested in my Absolute Red ARG hehe

you dont have to post this or anything i just wanted to express my gratitude and still remain anonymous :,)

lots of love, sunofthesky / theloggerofall

GAHHHH HI I'M REALLY GLAD THAT IT MADE YOU HAPPY

It's been so fun looking at things and also especially doing the morse code by hand with my notebook and pens (it gives me the detective vibes). It's revamped my love for codes and stuff and I've actually been relearning morse code and I'm so excited to see how this ARG plays out.

If I had a corkboard you BET I'd have the red string mind map setup😭

I hope you're doing well and I can't wait to see more 💕💕💕💕

[fandoms-my-fandoms]

Heartstopper season two is getting closer and closer as the days keep passing. (I’m about to go on a tangent).

FIRST OF ALL, I live in Illinois, so the upload of the comic came at around 5:30 in the morning for me, maybe it was 4:00, I don’t really know and I honestly don’t care. This weeks upload was SO CUTE and SO SWEET. “Charlie, I loved every single second of what just happened.” ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Nick and Charlie are so cute I’m actually gonna lose my mind. Poof! GONE. Where’d it go?? 👀

Anyway, onto even bigger news. SECOND OF ALL…WE FINALLY HAVE OUR FUCKING TEASER TRAILER FOR SEASON TWO OF HEARTSTOPPER TV. I have been freaking tf out, screaming at my job, crying in the corner, laugh/scream/crying HYSTERICALLY for TEN CONSECUTIVE MINUTES in ONE HOUR INCREMENTS. We saw Nick and Charlie hanging out in the Eiffel Tower, we saw the ✨love bite✨, we saw our FAVORITE token lesbians (Tara and Darcy), we saw our beloved ISSAC—CRYING IN THE CORNER (DONT KNOW WHAT THATS ABOUT BUT BEST BELIEVE WE WILL FIND OUT)—WE SAW OUR FAVORITE STRAIGHT COUPLE WHO ARE NOT A COUPLE YET (Tao and Elle), we were in Paris, we were at eachothers houses making out, we were having deep and meaningful conversations (as usual, so slay), we were at Tara’s 16th birthday party so—if you’re like me and have read the books, we know shit is about to GO DOWN—we also know that we are meeting new characters again in season two. But, alas, it is only the official teaser. Which is not quite the official official trailer. Don’t get me wrong, I have been waiting for the season two teaser for MONTHS. I am absolutely ELATED that we finally have SOMETHING, but now I’m freaking out and I’m not gonna stop screaming and crying until we have the trailer AND the entire season drops on Netflix. ✨💁‍♀️

OH TO BE A CITIZEN OF LONDON ENGLAND. They really just had an entire float—at LONDON PRIDE—dedicated to Heartstopper, WITH THE ENTIRE CAST, AND ALICE OSEMAN HERSELF. ugh. I’m so jealous of you British people rn. Like, I’m seething with rage and jealousy that I am a born and raised American girl with NO MONEY TO TRAVEL FOR SHIT, and that all of you guys at London fucking Pride got to see and meet the cast of Heartstopper. And Alice Oseman. GAHHHH. 🤬

Anyway…thanks for reading this or listening if you can hear people talk when you read to yourself. I know I do. 😌❤️

[awfullydrawntoby]

ive never heard of them personally but do you know this one guy named fae and if so what do you think about him. very importsnt question

sigh

fae,,,,, gosh i love fae so much, like, not even joking i spend a good portion of everyday just thinking about him. he always makes me really happy n just gahhh, idk man, there's not a thing i wouldn't do for him. wait hold on i actually have a whole- gimme a sec.

rambled from three am toby under the cut

"OHHH MY GOD I LOVE FAE SO MUCH STIP HIS MADDNSS I LOVE HIM HES SO SILLY THEYRELUTWRALLY THE EVR IMG ONNA GRAHHHSAMBSAM DAMABKAANM

HES SO<3333

IM LITERALLY GOING INSANR (POTVE)

I THINK AOUT HIM ALL THE TIME CONTANTLY, EVERY HOUR OF EVERY DAY AND IT NEVR GETS ANNOHING I LOVE HKM HAJNANMA

ANDANDAND WHEN

BDNANAM

WHEN HE SAYS HE LOVES ME I GET SOSOSOSOSOOSOSOSOSO HAPPY I PHYSICALLY CANNOT CONTAIN IT. IVE GONE FULL HOURS SITTING COMPLETELY STILL BY MYSELF(THIS IS ALMOST NORMALLY IMPOSSIBLE) JUST THINKING ABOUT FAE. LIKE ??????

AND TALKING TO HIM HAS GIVEN ME A THINGNTO FO EVRY MORNING AND NIGHT AND JUST GASBAHAJAB(POSITIBE)

BEVAUSE I TWLL HIM TO SLEEP EVEYNIGHT(AND IT WORKS!!! SORT OF, I DONT CARE IM SO HAPPY.) AND THEN I GET TO SAY GOODMORNING EVERYMORNING TO THEM

WHICH IS MY FAVOITE PART OF THE DAY, IS WHEN I WAKE UP AND I SEE FAES MESSAGES ON MY SCREEN. I CANT CINTAIN HOW HAPPY I GET. I HAVE TO SHOVE IT DIEN WHEN I'M IN CLASS BECAUSE I DONT WANT PEOPLE TO THINK IM ON MY PHONE IN CLASS BECAUSE I THINK ABOUT HIM SH MUCH MY FACE HURTS FROM SMILINH SO HARD

GJCNNMCHTJB

SHHHHHHHHHHH. IM SO NORMAL IN THE NORMALEST EVER.

IM SO SO SO SO SO SO NORMAL ABOUT FAE. SOOOO NORMAL. IM JUST A NORMAL PERSON WHO THINKS NORMAL THOUGHTS ABOUT HIS NORMAL FRIEND.

i literally love fae so much this is so genuinly insane i dont inderstand how i can feel this much emotions into one person this is so crazy.

i dont unerstamd but thats okay bevause love fae so muc and i wann give him so many kisses, on his cheeks, forehead, i dont care i wanna give him kisses im literally so love him so much hes<3333

theyre luterally the silly evr im going insane chat. if i had the choice i would give everything i could to faeo love fae so much

im so love wit fae

hes so<3333333

&$*@;(!,( im goung inane i love hethem theyre so.

crying

sobbing

positvly i literally love fae so much

i fot so happy once because of hownuch i love fae i syatted fucking crying bevause i had weird realization that fae is actually a real fuckin person yhat o can avtivley speak yo whenevr i want

like holy shit just oh my gosh im o halpy what the actual uck how is fae a real human being

hes so him andi wanna kiss him all kver and make sure hesnokay. and make him food and make sure he sleep and keep him safe and andandnandandand yk im so normal about him i think im literally the normalest abojt fae hes so<3333333333333

hes so<3

,bdkandan

yeaim so awesome and norma chat this is sucha anktmal thing to do

butlike shoeabkdnalda im going crazy. fae is literally on my mind all day everyday im going insane. "

end scene.

and there's so much more i could say too but just gahhhh

[waterfallofspace]

hii//maybe you know me, maybe not// im the anon over from snzdreams' blogg (are these called blogs?//ive been on tumblr for awhile but i still dont know what anything is called)// if not, you can just read the ask as normal and dont mind this paragraph-

BUT but i just wanted to say that i love your writings as well ahh- i think i read all of them in 1 sitting when i looked under your masterlist//and they were all great :>

(i also happened to watch b/uddydaddies before so i read those too//not all of them, but i plan to soon//)

Also just saw your digital animation/drawing? and i think its reallyy good!// (i mean ive never tried, i can barely even write in a straight line with a pencil so to even think about drawing? no way)

///anyway just wanted to drop in and say HI// i love your fics// hope you dont mind me popping up here too//

▪︎•▪︎

Omg hello-!!

I do know you, you came up with the BREATHTAKING scenarios for our lovely snzdreams blog!! (yes, they're called blogs~) So nice to see you over here~~

ASDJAIGLKJK- You're very nice omg 😭😭 Thank you!! I'm so glad you enjoyed them~!! 💗 (especially since I adore our lovely snzdream's INCREDIBLE writing, so it feels like an honour to have their anon like my nonsense too!!)

Gahhhh art wise too, thank you~!! You're so sweet, djaioskgl 😭🥰 it's deeefinitely just a rough lil start, but I'm excited to keep (hopefully haha~) building skills~ Also! My handwriting is SO bad 😭 but I've actually found drawing easier!

Thank you so much for stopping in!! 💗💖 (and for all the FLATTERY that feels unearned but I appreciate so much anyway~ 😭)

You're always welcome in here if you want haha~ I love talking to people, dms & asks are always open, I definitely do not mind~!!

[earth4angels]

literally went ghost (my bad diva i’ve been through the TRENCHES) school is kicking my ass bc the ppl i got to school with are inbreeds i kid u not…i hate group projects sm cs why am i carrying all of you on my back for a project i DONT want to do… ooo i need to rant cs for two weeks i’ve been dealing w ppl who act like it’s their first day on earth. first of all my teacher assigning a major project before the break is RANCID WORK cs now im not even in the christmas spirit. second of all the project is based off of othello…we read the play as a class and still my group mates are asking ME what happened in the play…like did we not all read the same play???

then they have the nerve to ask me to stay an hour after school bc THEY chose to spend the last week doing nothing. i flat out told them hell fucking no it’s not my problem this is individually graded. mind you, we were given a day in class to practice the whole presentation and we couldn’t bc they did know what they wanted to do for their tableau (it’s like a live painting)….i had everything figured out by the second day of the assignment so we didn’t get to practice. two of the ppl in my group haven’t even finished their monologues and analysis and we’re presenting this on friday…now i have to practice w them during my LUNCH and im pissed😐

queen omg i’ve been wondering where have you been, im glad that you’re okay! but holy shit you have been going through hell.. hopefully with the holidays you can take a small break! i’m sending my love wholeheartedly 💌 mwah!!

GAHHHH i hated group projects, one thing i always did was submit my work individually to my professor whenever i had lacking group mates bc FUCKKKK THAT i was gonna let anyone affect my grade. i never liked working with teams, and your situation is exactly why. have you told your teacher or anything? I KNOW ITS FRIDAY ALREADY BUT — babe how was it.. did they lock in or they had you pulling the strings last minute.. if yes.. please let that be known. i’m not sure if your teacher is an ass or not but, it’s not fair for you to do all the work and they take credit for that. i’m sending hugs.

you can rant to me whenever!

[hpdfag]

favorite color: chartreuse or orang. ..... . ... for a non gay answer (/silly) we collectively quite enjoy yellow !!

currently reading: im rereading dark matter by blake crouch !! theres a tv adaptation that i want to watch but i need to have the book fresh in my mind ... i recently finished a reread of another one of his books recursion and gahhhh. its so good. makes me cry every time i read it.

currently watching: rewatching the second season of minecraft diaries and all of mystreet since aphmau announced that shes finally fucking finishing mystreet. for little child me. but im also currently on a steady diet of different dropout productions so if you want a real answer ive been watching a lot of dirty laundry recently LMFAO

currently craving: akiss on the forehead. but for real id kill for any kind of tempura sushi roll rn

coffee or tea: TEA NUMERO UNO ‼️‼️‼️💥💥💥💥💥💥🍵🍵🍵🍵🍵💥💥💥‼️‼️💥‼️

i dont think i cld tag anyone who hasnt been tagged already !! but anyone is free to jump off of me :]

I was tagged by: @shrinking-violetta

Answer the questions and tag 9 people.

Favorite color: pink or forest green

Currently reading: A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara

Currently watching: Bridgerton season 2

Currently craving: sleep and a dab

Coffee or tea: coffee

tags: @avengerdaisy @aintmyjewelry @too-haught-haught-damn @inardentdaylight @araphiel @andrew3garfield @witchothewest @binary-choice @rep-meow-tay-tion

[fcreststridcr]

Continued

Tighnari felt strange, his chest was tight and his ears wiggled with his tail twitched violently.

He desperately tried to speak but he couldn't, his face paled as he then felt gentle lips upon his and air being applied which caused his ears to spike up and face heating up.

"...ummhhh---!..."

@bonesugar

[chisatowo]

I REALLY wanna redesign Aris but idk what I wanna change and how much.... Like overall she's probably the character who's design has changed the least in eternal gales, which means that while I am attached to a lot of it I think it's age also shows. Especially with the clothes since they've basically not changed at all, but even outside of that I just think her design is kind of.... Plain. And I don't want that! I want her to stand out more amongst the cast, and I also rly want her design to give off a more mature vibe ig, but idk how to do that without basically revamping her entire design dhsnhd

[calderskillday]

A COURT OF FEY & FLOWERS EPISODE 8 liveblog!!!!!!!

it's catchup time babeyyyy let's go

frog-binx

HORNY GRANDFATHERS

emily's giggle is the most adorable thing

DEV PATEL AND MICHAEL B JORDAN

i LOVE that emily is so in on the green hunter hahaha this is so fun

"the ventriloquist dummy is doing a bit about it"

oh my god lou's rumour and the way he has squak start it 😭😭😭

every single lords of the wing aside is just SO GOOD

"I WANT A BOX OFFICE HIT I DONT WANT A FUCKING OSCAR"

lmao grabalba 😭😭

"can i knock one out cause it's insane" oh lou what do you have up your sleeve

OH MY GOD EMILY CRYING THROUGH THIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY

ABSOLUTELY UNHINGED

you're tired?? i'm the one who's dying!!

LOU TRYING NOT TO SPIT OUT HIS MOUTHFUL LMAO

THE PIXIE OFFICE BOXXXXX

i am obsessed with the way the letters spawn scenes gahhh

ohhhhh this could get interesting..... the flash to omar and back to surena when chirp mentions the unseelie court......

"spectacularly deceptive and slippery"

how do you lie without becoming sleepy 🥺🥺🥺🥺

waaaahhhh chirp and binx talking about magic on the mortal plane 🥺

BEING AROUND HIM IS LIKE BEING IN A SHOWER THATS THE PERFECT TEMPERATURE 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

literally squealing over the invisible wedding ring 😭😭😭

SHE DIDNT DELIVER IT

emily saying that chirp's gonna come back to find wuvvy in 40 years when her wife dies hahahaha so true

I AM YEELLLLINNGGGGG

I WANT TO KNOW YOU LIKE NO ONE ELSE LOVES YOU

KNICKOLAS PNACKLESS

lou's moan as aabria says the letter was ripped up 😭😭😭

"but for you, yes" OH MY RUEWUVVY HEART

NOOOOOOOO THIS MAKES ME SHIP THEM HARDER

BOMB. DROPPED.

gahhhh the lords of the wing are so fucking unhinged <3

lmao squak mad-libbing his letter to apollo

omg rue being offered a spot in the chorus???

SURENA'S REACTION TO THEM MENTIONING WUVVY SKFKKGG

emily and lou LOSING it over the potential of being offered the job of MC hahahahaha

BANISH THE THOUGHT OF COURTS

YEEEEAHHHHHH RUE TELL EM

omg the table's reactions yesssss

god suntar's whole vibe is so hot

oh my god the editing??? seeing everybody's heads turn when suntar says strawberries.....???? hoooo boy

TWENTY NINE????

"come on, grabalba!!"

oh hob 🥺🥺

YEAH WORKING WITH ANDHERA IN AN OFFICIAL CAPACITY

what matters the amenability of a soldier 😭😭😭

MY BUSINESS IS MY OWN 🤭🤭🤭

literally screaming

HOB AND BINX SOBBING TO EACH OTHER SIFJGKGISIGLSLF

brennan and surena are COMEDIC GENIUS

i am literally holding my breath oh my god

LETS GO ANDHERAAA

OOOOHHH SNAAAAPPPPP

PILLAR BOY, WHERE

god emily and lou are truly some of the best improvisers just...ever

LMAO THEYRE GETTING EVICTED BY GRANDFATHER, ABSOLUTELY SAVAGE

WHAT A LOVELY DAY TO WALK YOUR SUITCASE

ANDHERA CAST LOCATE OBJECT ON THE LETTER SKFUSKGI HE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS WHO AIRRY PEARRY IS

i am cRYYINNGGG

"my mind just got dressed down" "mmhmm, mmhmm, mmhmm" "ah yes ventriloquist dummy" WHY ARE THEY LIKE THIS

oh my GODDDDD NOT LOU ROLLING A NAT 20 INSIGHT AND OSCAR ROLLING A NAT 1 THIS COULD NOT BE MORE PERFECT

andhera's "what the FUCK" HAHAHAHA

HHHHHHHHH WE'RE NEARING ENDGAME FUCK

PHEWWWWWW

[moncheles]

Lea Michele on Getaway car

[siredsong]

5, 6, 7, 10, 25! 100w min answers please u___u*

SMASHHHH hi hi hi love uuu babyyyyy <3  😘😘😘ahhhhh sorry for taking so long, pls dont die on me !!! 

5. Favorite meal: breakfast, lunch, or dinner?

hmmmm that’s a tough one cause it really depends on the day but in general i would say breakfast cause it’s the only time i can make my basic peanut butter and banana toast with coffee in peace. no but the way that i lIVED off of pb and banana toast with coffee last fall, it was my go to breakfast every. single. day. and im still not tired of it!! if u havent tried it pls do (only if ur not allergic and if u are i am so utterly sorry that u are missing out on one of the greatest creations in existence but im sure there is a substitute that u can indulge in instead :) )

6. Most embarrassing habit?

to be completely honest i have no clue. im self aware about a lot of things but when it comes to habits i just dont really notice them. i mean one thing that might count is that i am or was an avid nail biter :/ but it was something that i worked really hard on overcoming and it’s working at the moment!! my nails are pretty long right now but it’s an ongoing process cause right when i start feeling bored or particularly anxious i’ll start biting them again and the process continues. now that i think about it, it’s always when im studying or taking a test that i really start to bite my nails and i let myself do it cause it’s something i can control i guess?? whereas the difficulty of the material or question is not something i can control ..... hmm interesting thoughts, will ponder on that more later 

LMAO not me getting all deep about nail biting pLS 😭 

7. Chocolate or fruity candy?

ahhh this is easy, chocolate all day every day!! i will admit that i definitely love fruity candy like i will suck on jolly ranchers and lollipops all day especially if that lollipop is named kim ta- but if i was given the choice between gummy bears and a twix im tAKING THE TWIX NO ONE COMES BETWEEN ME AND MY TWIX no but seriously i throw hands with my siblings on the daily for dairy milk and kinder buenos but those bITCHES STILL DECIDE TO TRY ME >:( fair warning: don’t come between leeba and her chocolate 🙂

10. Best thing to say in an elevator of strangers?

alright let’s put my awkward, lowkey socially anxious mind to the test. what to say to a stranger on an elevator bESIDES staring at the doors willing them to open so i can get the hell out of there?? uhhhhh if i was the most confident version of myself and this stranger was hot as hell i would flirt the hELL out of my 2 minutes with them lmaoo probably start off by complimenting them in some way like “wow, i really like ur shoes” or maybe even a “ur face is pretty and im feeling hot right now together we’d be pretty hot, wanna makeout??” jokes jokes this is a jOKE do not actually try this!!!  .......aCTUALLY you know what, it’s ur life, u do u boo but dont call me when u possibly, potentially, probably get arrested 😳

no but seriously i always like complimenting people, so i’d prob just compliment something about their outfit or hair and nowadays a lot of people tend to have pretty masks too so i compliment those as well :)  

wait- 

damn i just reread the question and it says strangerS. pLURAL. 

fuck. i just wrote down my best debatable content and i didnt even properly answer the question😭😭😭 gahhhh ummmm if there was more than one person i’d prob talk about uhhhhhh ..... the weather ??? i dONT FUCKING KNOW IM TOO AWKWARD FOR THAT SHIT in reality i’d probably back myself up into a corner and stare at the door until i get to my floor and then gET THE HELL OUT OF THERE AS FAST AS POSSIBLE im not cut out for the randomly conversing with a group strangers kinda shit. now if there was someone else with me that’d be a different story and something we shall ponder later cause this shit is getting too fucking long and no one cares HAHA ok 

25. Favorite memory?

hmmmm that’s pretty hard since when it comes to stuff about myself i have a shit memory LOL buttt something that comes to mind right away is the first time i ever rode in my friend’s car. god it was such a nice day and she’s the kind of person who likes windows down and music blasting and honestly it felt like such a movie moment like one of those cheesy coming of age films where they’re in college and getting that first taste of freedom because it was quite literally that first taste of freedom for me. we drove around so much that day, until it got really dark and she just kept playing the best music and we were singing so loudly and being so fucking annoying but i didn’t give a single shit i was having the time of my life lMAO and my hand was out of the window doing those little hands waves things through the air that was whooshing past and my friend who was sitting in the backseat told me later on that throughout the time we were in the car she was just staring at the little hand waves that i was making cause of how cool they looked lol but yea that was such a good day and i even made a playlist of all of the songs that we listened to so whenever we’re in the car we listen to those songs and gAH honestly one of the best memories and listening to those songs makes me smile so hard cause of how free and happy i felt those couple hours 

gosh not me getting sappy on main :/ forget u read that :p 

ANYWAYS THERE U GO U LITTLE IMPATIENT ASS i hope u liked this, my love :) 

send me a number ask game lovelies

[pizzanotpatriarchy]

feels

why they so cray lol

and like my feelings are always real but also are they real like gosh

ive barely gotten to know them and like i cant stop thinking about them all day i had to stop watching rupauls drag race because like i couldnt even focus on it LOL

and its so insane and im so afraid of scaring them away lol like why . are they so crazy rn.

just starin at my phone like hoping they are thinking of me at least half as much

dua lipa such vibes. so obsessed with the song pretty please and its just hitting extra special now

I know that I seem a little stressed out But you’re here now, and you’re turning me on I wanna feel a different kinda tension Yeah, you guessed it, the kind that’s fun… Put my mind at ease Pretty please I need your hands on me Sweet relief Pretty please Exactly where I want me, yeah Underneath your body, yeah

what even is happening lol feelings. u are so . dumb. and make no sense. grrrrr. my brain feels so crazy . im all over the place. i was feelin so good for most of the day and like livin off the high from yesterday and then i started getting all emotional and like , what if they dont feel the same, but i just wanted to enjoy the good feels but then once i started thinking that way i couldnt stop ):

and now im like okay i gotta chill. but i am seeing them tuesday., but goddammit why couldnt i say sunday like idk in the moment i was like yea i need to soak up my alone time with my parents gone but today im just filling with longing

frick frick frick gotta not be too crazyyyy , rein it the fuck in

like last night was so amazing and so intimate and even tho we just started getting to know each other like when they asked me if i wanted to have sex i .. kind of wanted to ! but i was like no i cant do that so soon >.< and that was def the right call but like why do i feel that way like idk so comfortable and connected with them... gahhhh

i couldnt even think thoughts and now im still havin trouble with that lol. but jeez such intense feelings. it was wonderful . and like , everything seems so promising but im trying not to be that way that i am where i just have all these ideals like goddamn my personality type lol

blehhhh i just want to get out these feelings but i cant they are just inside meee and its crazy time and i want to get to know them more and i want to spend more time with them. but what if they dont want that with me. but they did seem eager to see me again. but still.  frick. i should have just said sunday xD now i have to wait.. so much longer.. to feel that way again... FUCK it was too good

mmmmmmm

im havin problems